It's days like today (and yesterday) that I dread

(This is from Yesterday: January 28, 2013, saved it as a draft and forgot to finish it)"
I knew from the moment we signed up for military life that the Hubster being gone was going to bring days of sadness, loneliness, frustrations, and so much more.  He hasn't even left yet and today I just feel sad.  I was able to bury the sadness most of the day, until I got an email from the oldest ducklings teacher.  We know he has anxiety problems, and obsessive compulsive behaviors, and all of that affects his sleep.  He doesn't sleep well at night and he has night terrors often.  It's heart breaking to think that he's struggles with so much, and the closer it gets to his dad leaving the worse it gets.  He was recently put on medication to help him fall asleep at night and so far he's done well on it. I'm pretty much anti-medication for children, in the sense I like to try everything "natural" first, like diet change, calming remedies, etc... but it has gotten to the point of really needing something for him.  It is making the Hubster feel very guilty for leaving, and it's making the household more tense. 

Today: January 29, 2013:
Finishing where I left off yesterday, I think we are all officially set for the Hubster to leave.  Our POA is done, utilities/car insurance/etc. are ready to go, everything from his list is bought and packed, and we had our big blow-out fight this morning.... I think we are ready to go. Everything is better now, but this morning was not good. Not good at all :(  I have tried my best to keep things as stress-free before the Hubster leaves, but this morning it unraveled.  Hopefully that is all done and out of the way.